7.3.09

one last cry

hello folks,fellas,friends.....
did you ever feel desperate? i ever been feel desperate like 7 times. i'm crying a lot like stupid girl doing stupid things,i search for him but it doesn't make any sense. i love him,i always do. but he worried about that. i miss him but i wont tell him anything,i'm scared if he left me. i'm failed i wanna feel joy like everybody feels it. laughing a loud screaming out,without any heart attack. i can't makes you happy,some time we will meet at the last time ever we loved each other,i hope you'll know how huge is my love how deepest it is. i just wanna say thank you for everything,i'm still in love with you,don't worry about my feel it's just...well idk. and when my tears pouring down,you wouldn't know how hard i'm trying to flew my tears away.you couldn't know how hurt it is makes me cry every second,when i see you face is like i see somebody i don't know. you can't feel anything i feel anything i wrote in this post,how hard i type this alone. i just i don't know why i don't know who you are,but for the last time ever this is my one last cry...i can't say anything to make you understand with all of this.i know you will worried about this.where are you?where is the one who i love?thank you for everything yusuf and i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you...............................i love you so much
when i will ever laugh again?